Excerpted from my upcoming book, A Lonely Fool’s Masterpiece: “So, I’m telling you, if it doesn’t happen next time, I don’t think I can do this anymore,” my wife said. If it doesn’t happen next time… I had never allowed that notion to take hold in my mind, because I found it ridiculous. Of course we would have a child. But the idea that we might not succeed was beginning to register. All of a sudden, my wife was putting the barrel of a gun in my mouth and saying, if it doesn’